Falling loops of a bond!

As I sit here in gloom,
Thinking about the
Wrongs I did
Enough to
drag a  bond to its doom.
Finding hard to recollect,
For it  all happened correct,
As per my intellect.
But to them,
It were my faked overwhelms,
throwing me out of their realms.
 That ignorance,
Tests my tolerance,
With no scope for clearance,
And I realise the built distance.
Flashback, hindsight,
 gripped my mind tight,
searching the moments
Where I were perhaps
Too cold to their sight,
Yet too full for my love's appetite.
With my heart throbbing,
And chest sore from sobbing,
I look for the void answers
That brought me close to losers.
It all sailed with good intentions,
Was heading the justifications mentioned.
But those rowing with oars,
Found my heart too sore,
Leaving me hate myself more
And stay all alone.
Hoping against hopes,
 trying to tighten the falling  loopes,
Here i Yearn for the time,
Where I need not go a mile,
To get a true smile,
Over the demeanor that is
 Real and Only mine.

 **Nature is yet not asleep**

Sitting at the sea shore
With hands on  the sand
Which welcomes each wave
On the land.
My feet get drenched
With each tide high and low,
Back washing the sand beneath my toe,
The white caps becomes a feast to behold.
The crescent moon, waning yet
 Emitting enough to diffuse to the
 sparkles in its vicinity.
The moonlit, crashing waves
 showering the blanket
Studded with stars in dark
With  leaps too high to leave a moisten mark.
The broken clouds
Melting with smoky scent
To make the shine translucent.
The scintillating stars.
Sharing the lusture,
Illuding the eyes
To a diamond
Veil on the waves
Tempting the feet to wade.
Hence, even in the dark
Nature isnt asleep
To let it's beauty peep
Through the far land
Above the sand!
 --- Saloni Gupta